Jeez, look at me. I am pathetic. I am crying because I can't bear studying. Because I am too dumb to absorb whatever it is that I read. I forget it the minute I close the notebook. I've gotta be less sensetive, but I just can't. I keep crying because I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like doing homework, I don't feel like writing or sleeping, ot eating, or staring at the ceiling. If I could choose what to do, I would not be able to pick something. I don't even want to relaz and watch a good movie. There is nothing in the whole world that I want, and there is nobody in the whole world ot make me feel better.

I can't be calm about studying. I panick easily, and when I do it's not pretty. I hate the wey on my face, ruining my make up and making my eyes look red and swollen. I hate this world full of work I will never be capable of accomplishing, and most of all I hate myself - the dumbest chick you could ever meet who has CD player instead of brains.

Go figure...

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