Yesterday I woke up at 11 am. That's when the "Even Stevens" marathon started. It ended in 12 hours, and I went to sleep. Needless to say I watched every minute of it, even when they doubled episodes. I ate watching it, I did homework watching it, I listened to music watching it. Heck, when Paul came over we watched it. =)

About Paul - there's quite a few doubts in my heart. Do I truly love this guy, or do I love the guy I made up myself in my dreams. A guy who cares about me and who does everything as I want it. Who feels with his heart what I want. I'm waking up to reality here, and how shall I say it - I DON'T LIKE IT! Those might be "scared-of-commitment" doubts, but what if my love really is fading? What if there was never love?What if I just made it up, just for the heck of it, just to make my life more interesting? While I am being emotional little freak I will avoid Paul. Maybe I will even avoid him to the point where we don't need each other. Or maybe I will avoid him to the point where I go insane. No one knows. Only time...

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