I should really stop reading my friends' old entries in their online diaries. All because they knew my boyfriend then, and I didn't, and they wrote not much of a nice stuff about him, which really upsets me, but I still can't help it, I just want to know who he was before we met and he became so special for me... I just have to understand that the fact that he was dumb and gross and it doesn't mean he is the same now. I hope that he changed, and that he will never be the same again. On the other hand, people can't change that much. Oh man...
And one girl even went out with him, and reading about them together is even worse. You know, reading about person I'm going out with being in love with somebody I know two weeks before I started going out with him... Very wierd. Very! People, don't read diaries, if you think they will affect your feelings. Knowing past isn't that important. I'd rather live not knowing all of that. I'd rather live in the world I made up for myself, then drowning in the true, rough world. I'm thinking about going in denial. Something tells me this is the only way to live my life.

P.S. Present is a lot more important than past. Because present we live in, past we forget and don't need, as it gets old and dies. That's why I hate my history class ;)

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