Last couple of weeks I fall asleep so easily. I have insomnia and I can't recall me falling asleep less then 10 minutes after I went to bed. Usually I think about all sorts of things, I try to solve my problems, I pull out my coolest memories from the back of my mind, and relive them. Sometimes I hum tunes, sometimes I recite poems, sometimes I laugh out loud because of the joke I remembered. But sometimes I am too tired for all that, sometimes all I want to do is fall asleep. But I can't. Because I have problems that need solutions on my mind. Bad memories keep coming back to haunt me. And I get a feeling I will never fall asleep. Eventually I do, but I can't tell you how damn hard it is. I considered taking sleeping pills, but they are not healthy, so I decided to pass. I mean, insomnia is not that bad. I can deal with that.

And did I finally find a way to deal with it, or am I just so tired I can't open my eyes? I don't know. But sleep was never as sweet as it is now.

Good morning!

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