I know, I know, I have two updates for today already... I'm just really confused, and there's noone to talk to. So I'm gonna go right ahead and talk to my dairy... I don't remember what happened at the dance last night. All I remembered when I woke up this morning is that something happened at the dance last night. My mind probably got really tired and I forgot everything! I mean, I didn't drink alcohol, didn't do drugs, but I felt like I was drunk. Maybe I was drunk with emotions, because when I came home I felt kinda high. Anyways, as I talk to people today, I find out more and more about my actions yesterday. I was talking on the phone with Shalomi today, and she mentioned I was acting freaky last night. So I went over to her place, to watch "Scary movie", and ask for details. She didn't remember much, but what she remembered was enough to shock me. Anyways, I was dirty dancing with Joe, and it was my initiative, and me and couple of my girlfriends were trying to undress him (???) until chaperone told us to break it up. God. No wonder I forgot all about it. It's the kinda thing I would want to forget. Considering the fact that my boyfriend and Joe hate each other. And I feel that both of them are really special people for me and I wouldn't want to lose one or another. But it is not possible and I have to choose. And I don't want to, because choosing one means losing another. And that's what I am afraid of. Losing a person I care for...

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