No matter how I try I don’t find a reason why

Believe me it’s no lie

I always have you on my mind

No matter what I see guess where I wanna be

Love is the answer I will find

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Hear that from a girl who was scared to death of falling in love. Basically not of falling in love as it is, because love is one of the most important things in the world, but of what follows it. Disappointment, tears, getting hurt. Feeling so alone, when surrounded by hundred people. People you don't need. And all you need is one single person, who made your life so miserable, who broke your heart, who made you cry, and you never stopped crying since...

And now, still afraid of falling in love so deeply I can't get out by myself, I am going into another relationship, with, basically, the same person. Person who made me go through so much, and I thought I would never forgive him, yet with the first word I realized that I desperately want to have him back, no matter what he did. My little world crashed as I realized that even though for the last few months I've been feeding myself with foolish thoughts I'm really over him, I was not. He didn't just left footprints in my heart, he never left it. And I wouldn't want him to...

Call it stupid. Call it wierd. Call it love. Call it whatever you want. I won't just ignore this feeling, I will try to figure it out, but until then, I'll just enjoy it. Enjoy it just as much as my wierd relationship with a great guy that means so much to me.

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